Lynette

Yesterday I lost a friend who was dear to my heart.  My friend Carol and I would visit her every Tuesday at the nursing home and we'd read and study the bible with her.  It's not easy to lose someone who became a big part of your life.  I know that now.  Lynette was an awesome person.  She was 61.  So why was she in a nursing home?  She had PSP.  A rare form of palsy in her brain that affected her eyesight.  But not her heart.  Lynette is the first person (who I'm not related to) who has told me that I was a good friend to her and she loved me.   She didn't just say it once.  She was always telling me.  I think it was so I wouldn't forget.  I will never forget though. We had some great discussions.  The thing I regret is that I didn't get to go see Lynette last Tuesday.  My mom (aka the best baby sitter in the whole world) was sick.  And something kept telling me to go see Lynette.  But I got to busy and let life get in the way.  I feel sad.  But I know that Lynette is no longer suffering and someday I'll see her again and she won't be sick.  Until then I know she'd want me to get on with my life and quit wallowing.  I suppose I will do that for her.  But for now I just want to be alone.